Shuffling

...Priorities, that is.

Jeremy taught the boys' Bible class at church last night since their regular teacher is on vacation. He told me this morning that they couldn't answer any of the questions about God's first people (Adam and Eve). I was floored. We have gone over this. We have talked about this. I know that once upon a time they knew this. So how could they remember their memory verses from a year ago, and not remember this?

Maybe I have been a little lax lately in my Bible instruction with them. I know that their spiritual training should be top priority, and I want it to be. I know it is just an excuse, but it just seems like it is so hard sometimes, when there is so much going on. Especially when our regular schwedule relaxes so much in the summer time, and Jeremy is working longer hours, and yada yada. I know. Excuses.

But I have decided things are going to be different. Less tv watching. More time together spent talking about God. We used to do this. I'm not sure where we got off track, but I am going to make it happen again. This is about to be a different home. A different mom, in more ways than one. I actually had a dream last night about how I was a terrible mommy. I know, a little irrational, but it's kinda the way I have been feeling lately.

Man, when did I become such a Debbie Downer??

A little bit of funny to lighten up the post....Audrey has started shaking her head "no." If she is doing something she doesn't need to be, I say, "Audrey" and she looks at me, and I say "no, no." Then she grins and shakes her head and goes ahead and does it anyway. Lol. It's a learning process, right? :)



Proverbs 22:6  "Train up a child in the way he should go, and when he is old, he will not depart from it."

Update 7/19/11: I feel better now...we talked about the story and they could answer nearly every question I asked them. Whew! I don't feel like such a slacker mom now.

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Me and God

Me and God
Josh Turner, feat. Ralph Stanley



There ain't nothing that can't be done
By me and God
Ain't nobody gonna come in between me and God
One day we'll live together
Where the angels trod
Me and God

Early in the morning talking it over
Me and God
Late at night talking it over
Me and God
You could say we're like two peas in a pod
Me and God

He's my Father
He's my friend
The beginning
And the end
He rules the world
With a staff and rod
We're a team
Me and God

I am weak and he is strong
Me and God
He forgives me when I'm wrong
Me and God
He's the one I lean on
When life gets hard
Me and God

He's my Father
He's my friend
The beginning
And the end
He rules the world
With a staff and rod
We're a team
Me and God

He rules the world
With a staff and rod
We're a team
Me and God

We're a team
Me and God



My Prayer is....

Is God your team captain?

A Bit of Rambling

The past several days have been busy and, for some reason, emotional for me.

Busy because, well, we have had a lot going on. Jeremy scored an above ground pool from a job he was doing, so we have been spending our spare time over there taking the deck apart and starting to get it ready to move. My dishwasher has been out of order (till yesterday), which meant most of the day Saturday was spent playing catch up hand washing the dishes. Not that I really mind hand washing dishes. It's just that there were A LOT of them! When I wasn't in front of the sink Saturday, I was outside helping Jeremy mow the yard and feeding the azaleas. Then, of course, we went to work on the pool. Sunday, we had our dear friends the Matlocks over for the day. We had so much fun with them, as usual. I am going to miss them so much when Jon begins his residency who-knows-where and we won't be able to hang out with them. :*(

Emotional because.....I'm not sure yet. I have actually felt a little more peaceful, a little calmer the past few days. But I have been more prone to tears for no reason, as well. I haven't decided yet if they are good tears or what. I figure part of it is probably thinking about my babies growing up. Ty starting kindergarten and Troy starting preschool next year. Audrey is heading for trying to walk. Also, Ty's frog-lovey has been missing since Sunday afternoon, and I have looked everywhere. I know it will turn up somewhere. I am just afraid he has left it outside and the dog got a hold of it. :/ I think I am actually more upset than he is. He has slept with it every night since he was born...except for the occasional times it has come up missing like this. He has a "back-up" but the past 2 nights when he went to bed, he asked me to please look everywhere for it before I went to bed. :( I am hoping he has just stuck it in something somewhere (like he is prone to do) and I just haven't found the hiding spot yet.

But on top of all of this, I have had a certain peace. I have been doing a lot of thinking and a lot of praying, and started some studying. Jeremy and I have often talked about how sometimes we feel like we're not exactly where God wants us to end up. We aren't sure if that means a physical move, or a lifestyle change, or a spiritual change of some sort, but we just don't feel "settled." I am praying that the more we talk and pray and study, God will show us the path He has laid out for us.

Overwhelmed

Ok, I don't usually rant, complain, vent, or whatever, online or in person. And hopefully this won't really turn into any of those things - hopefully it will stay a good, healthy "get some things off your chest" deal.

We'll see.

I have just been a little overwhelmed lately. Inside. Feeling...not really like a failure, but like things could (and should) be better. Doubting myself and some of the things I have always thought about myself. It's a bit humbling to look at yourself and realize that at 27, you really aren't sure who you are. I have spent a good part of my life trying to be who I thought everyone else wanted me to be. Now, I am struggling to figure out who I really am underneath all of that. I am realizing I just want to be the person God intended for me to be in the first place. The person who is being the best Christian, wife, and mother I can be, relying on God's Word and His Spirit to guide me in my decisions, and really listening to what He is saying. Choosing the path He is leading me toward, not necessarily the one I think will make me happiest or be the easiest.

For me, that starts with (after following God and being a Christian, of course) being a wife and mother. That's what my life is all about. I am an intelligent person. I have no doubt that I could have pursued any career I set out after, and still could. Throughout my life, I went back and forth over what I wanted to be when I grew up. A singer, a doctor or nurse, a teacher, a paralegal (which is what I ended up getting an AAS in, just bc it was easy). But through it all, I always knew deep down that I wanted to be a wife and mommy. In some of my studying lately, I have been thinking about what that means. Maybe not always what I thought it did. Much more studying and praying and discussing with Jeremy exactly where this is leading me, leading us. Probably more posting on it later.

Again, we'll see.

For now, I have priorities. To keep studying and praying to see what God has to say on what I need to be doing. To make my home a safe, happy haven for Jeremy and our children. To be there for Jeremy and be his helpmeet, no matter what role he is needing me to fill at the time, from listening to serving to dragging tree limbs out of the yard because he cut down one of our trees yesterday. ;) To be a loving moma to my kiddos, raising them in God, teaching them what they will need to know to live in this world, but not follow in its sinful ways. To just be a good Christian in general.